Silent People Love Story

800px-Candy-heartsSomeone found my blog by searching for this phrase recently. I don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day, but I thought I’d write a flash fiction for those of you who do. 

Candy hearts litter the dash. What a nice touch for our last Valentine’s Day.

I sneak one as Jake permanently seals the doors and starts the engine. We’ve been together so many years that we don’t need words at takeoff. He does his work and I do mine.

The cargo growls. A faint, sulphuric odour fills the cabin. Damn, the meds can’t be wearing off already. The last dose would have knocked out an elephant. I double the next round and text Melinda. If nothing else, she’ll know how to slow these things down if any more of them hatch. There’s no way this one will survive its midnight crash into Kīlauea.

A silent nod from my captain. All systems go.

I’m ready.

 

 

 

 

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Suggestion Saturday: February 8, 2014

Here is this week’s list of blog posts and other tidbits from my favourite corners of the web.

How Fruit Juice Went From Health Food to Junk Food via StoryRoute. What I find most interesting about this article is how our notions of what is (and isn’t) healthy are influenced by trends. Yes, new research occasionally does show that certain foods are much more (or less) healthy than what we had originally believed, but a lot of it boils down to hype.

Neptune Memorial Reef – An Under Sea Cemetery. I’ve been fascinated by cemetery art and architecture for many years. Some people are amazingly creative when it comes to designing their final resting place, and the people profiled in this article are no exception to that rule.

Yellow Pills and Green Pills. It’s so hard to comment on this comic strip without inadvertently giving away the ending. All I can really say about it is that it reminds me of something my parents used to say about the downside of intelligence.

When You Can’t Be Trusted to Hurt Yourself via dorsalstream. The best line from this piece is: “Sessions are like getting your hair cut, only your hair is broken and it hurts.”

From What I Saw:

He slumped against the gym wall and slammed his head back. The act was met with a sharp reprimand from a bystanding aide. And I know what they saw.
They saw defiance. Headbanging behavior. A tantrum.
I saw a student trying to block out external input. I saw. Everyone else gawked and chattered as the other kids did the warm-ups. I stood by helplessly.
I saw a humiliated man sitting against a wall in a corner, helpless and outnumbered, with no way to communicate.

From Wendel’s Tips for Travellers via Skelemika:

What to seeThe Extravaganza of Personalities.  This is my favorite.  Admission is free, and you can stay as long as you like.  You can watch the Turning Worm grow razor sharp incisors right before your eyes (rarely after).  Or hear a Grand Tirade by King Sneer as he leans out across the Barrier of Insolence to address the crowd (sometimes spelled cowed).


If you’ve ever wondered what it’s like to live in a fishbowl, Diary of a Stage Mother’s Daughter is the perfect book for you.

I watched occasional reruns of Little House on the Prairie as a kid, but I knew nothing about any of the child actors who illuminated Laura Ingalls Wilder’s books. Celebrity worship was never something that my family encouraged. It would be really interesting to hear from any readers who were big fans of Melissa Francis when she was young if there are any reading this post!

Melissa definitely didn’t live a charmed life, and what I liked most about her story was how completely different her actual childhood was from the image she portrayed. We rarely know what’s really going on in other people’s lives.

What have you been reading?

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After the Storm: Part Forty-Two

800px-Desert_flower_UtahJust tuning in? Start here. 

“Mariposa, we need to talk.”

The room was all but empty now. Sometimes they stuck around to socialize after less contentious meetings, but several hours of bad tempers flaring in a room far too small for the number of people crowded into it left almost no one interested in making small talk.

“Henry said something as he was walking past me. Did you hear him?”

Mariposa shook her head and she reached for her baby. Daphne stretched her arms in relief. It felt good to let her muscles relax after hours of cuddling.

“I heard him say, ‘I guess I’ll have to bury the bodies myself, then.'” The younger woman froze for a second before offering up a weak smile.

“He’s always been hot-tempered. He didn’t mean it.” One of the benefits of growing up in a community as close-knit as Peoria is that you quickly learned who was truly dangerous and who simply craved a captive audience for their temper tantrums. Mariposa was certain Henry belonged in the latter category. True, he’d always kept to himself and what family he had left had long since scattered to faraway towns, but he wasn’t dangerous. Not really.

“Are you sure? He sounded like he meant it.”

“There’s no way anyone could hide something like that in Peoria. We’re not like -” Mariposa stopped. She’d been brought up to view Mingus with a tinge of fear due to their extremely punitive social customs, but she didn’t want to offend the only living grandmother of her child. “We don’t live like that,” she finished weakly.

Her community was known for many things, not all of which were necessarily positive. But murder was most definitely not one of their collective flaws.  Daphne was just about to speak when her daughter-in-law opened her mouth again.

“Look, I know Henry can take some getting used to. He’s not the friendliest person you’ll ever meet in this life, Oma, but that doesn’t mean he’s actually killing people. He just likes to blow off some steam sometimes and shock people he hasn’t met yet.”

“That’s not what it sounded like to me. Can’t you have someone check on him?”

Mariposa sighed. Technically this wasn’t in her job description. All she really needed to do was cajole her neighbours into sharing their precious water sources and refrain from stealing livestock, spouses, or tools from one another.

“I’ll ask the sheriff to stop in on him the next time he’s sober.” Knowing the sheriff this might take a while, but it was better than nothing. Daphne nodded and started walking slowly to the exit. She could hear Rosamund stamping her feet in the courtyard. The burro had grown accustomed to these trips and knew that the humans should have untied her and headed home by now.

*****

Wilma had never quite caught up from the long, hungry summer when she first joined Daphne’s family. She was unusually short for her age and had learned to read and write much later in life than her older brother. Felix was small for his age, too, but he seemed to understand numbers and letters much more easily than his baby sister.

Every curve of the brushstroke was a triumph for the girl. When traditional teaching methods failed to take root in her mind, Daphne had been forced to find other ways to explain abstract concepts to her adopted granddaughter. More than once Daphne had wished her own grandfather had still been around. She’d forgotten much of what he’d taught her about how children learn, and she would have loved to pick his brain about some of Wilma’s more unusual challenges.

Which was part of the reason why Daphne was so surprised to see the girl hunched over the strange, silent rock when she arrived home. It had stopped working so long ago that Daphne assumed Wilma had forgotten all about it. Even if she had remembered, Daphne didn’t understand how a child who learned so slowly could figure out more about the strange object than a house full of quick-witted adults.

“r u alone?” the message read on the flat portion of the rock. It shimmered for a moment before the reply appeared.

“No, I’m travelling with my platoon. Do you still live in the flat, empty area beyond The Three Sisters?” They were left behind from a time when the ones who came before could build something many times higher than the tallest man. No one knew what they were, exactly, only that there were three of them standing in a row beside one of the roads that lead to nowhere and they weren’t made from wood or stone. To be honest, Daphne didn’t live anywhere near them other than in the sense that they shared a valley.

But they were the only landmark of Mingus. To claim you didn’t live near them was to admit that you didn’t really belong.

“Wilma, what are you doing?”

The girl looked up at her with bright, shining eyes.

“I made a friend,” came her cryptic reply. “Her name is Rey and she can’t wait to meet us for dinner.”

Daphne dug into memories she had long since ignored.

“Who is Rey?”

“She said she knew you, but she thinks you still live at your old house.”

Another memory puffed past Daphne’s vision. She wondered if her old house was still shut up tight waiting for her or if it had long since smouldered into ruins. A lot of occupied houses in Mingus had been burned to the ground when their occupants refused to cooperate with the crowds who gathered outside of them. It seemed unlikely that an abandoned one would have fared any better. This was one of many reasons why they hadn’t returned yet.

“Wilma, this is important. Have you told her where we live now?”

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January 2014 Search Engine Questions

Sometimes readers find this blog through funny or unusual search terms. Here are my responses to the ones that showed up last month. 

What are some good small talk questions to ask kids? Let them lead the conversation. My nephew loves to talk about all kinds of stuff –  war, world history, how babies are made, sports, whether or not he can have another cookie before dinner. 😀

What is the best occupational category for a creator? Writer. Artist. Painter. Sculptor. Singer. Carpenter. Cook. Baker. Storyteller. Street performer.

How to bring up deconversion to friends? I wait until it comes up naturally in conversation.

Did you eat another candy cane snake? I’ve never eaten any of them.

How can you live with the only one sister who won’t forgive the other sister? Let them sort out their own relationship. It’s not your job to fix the entire world.

Is it ok not to be like children? Yes.

Is telling the truth gossip? It depends on your intentions and to what extend it is your business. Are you finding pleasure in someone else’s misfortune or disapproving of decisions they make that aren’t actually harming anyone else? Useless gossip. Are you warning an innocent third party about someone who is known to be dangerous? Possibly ok.  Deciding if you have enough evidence to call CPS or to convince a frail, elderly relative to get outside help before someone gets seriously hurt? Go for it.

 

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No Place Like Home

Photo by Chris Evans.

Photo by Chris Evans.

There’s a difference between thinking about travelling and actually doing it.

A few years ago my husband was enamoured with the idea of travel. He spent his entire childhood in the same province and only ever lived in two different houses while growing up as far as I know. To him the idea of going somewhere new was exciting.

To me it was old hat. I moved eight times growing up, and while we only lived in three different states the act of packing up and going somewhere new happened often enough that as an adult I’m not particularly keen on repeating the experience. I like the familiarity of staying in the same place year after year, of not starting over fresh in a brand new city or town. Yes, eventually you will meet new people and know where to find the best of everything, but that kind of knowledge takes time to build.

This is one of those things that doesn’t have a right or wrong answer. It’s perfectly ok to love travelling or to loathe it, to wish to move every six months or to hope to stay in the same place for the rest of your life.

It’s been interesting to see how our opinions on the topic have shifted in the nine years we’ve been together. I’m beginning to like travelling a little more. It’s exciting to visit a new town and try something unique to that area. There is something to say for breaking out of old routines and forging new ones for what you already know is going to be a limited amount of time.

But it’s also great to go back home. The end of 2013 and the beginning of 2014 included a lot of travel for my husband and me. We enjoyed our trips, but I’m happy to be home.  Routines can be so soothing.

One of our neighbours has the friendliest dog in the world. If you so much as glance in her direction she will bounce over for as many head rubs  and ear tickles as she can squeeze out of you before it’s time to part ways. It’s impossible to meet this dog without grinning, and I am thrilled to cross her path when we meet. This is just one of the many small ways in which it feels so good to be home.

If you’ve travelled recently, I’d love to know what you missed most about wherever you call home while you were gone.

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Suggestion Saturday: February 1, 2014

Here is this week’s list of blog posts, poems, and other tidbits from my favourite corners of the web.

From They Sent a Knight to Save You Once:

they sent a knight to save you once and found you curled up with the dragon crown askew, skirt singed.

Has America Progressed? This is the first time I’ve ever linked to an ESPN article on any blog I’ve ever written in my entire life because I’m not really interested in athletics. Not to mention that the types of exercise I have learned to like generally aren’t competitive enough to be featured on sports sites. But this is a fantastic essay about how far America has come in learning acceptance as well as how far they still have to go, and I think everyone – amateur athletes and otherwise – will love it as much as I did.

The Race to Save a Language  – and Its People. My grandparents generation grew up speaking German, but their descendants do not. This isn’t quite the same thing as what is discussed in the article, of course, but I do think there are a few similarities between the two. It’s interesting (and a little sad)  to see how or if a culture is preserved over the course of a few generations.

That Depends on What the Meaning of ‘Is’ is (or What Is the Definition of Person). This is the beginning of a great series by someone I’ve known online for a few years now. Click here for the second and final part of it.

The Untold Tale of Pow!, the Fourth Rice Krispie Elf. I’d never heard of this elf before. What a fun article!

Wilderness Women. This is a great essay about a competition women in Alaska (ironically) participate in when they’re looking for a husband. The pictures that accompany it are almost as good as the words themselves!

I used to love poetry, but for many years now I’ve struggled to find new collections that ignite my imagination. Our Andromeda is the first book of poetry in a long time that has reminded me of the way things used to be. I will admit to not finishing every poem in this book, but the ones that I finished I really loved. The home-like imagery in “Streetlamps” sent a shiver down my spine, and the spacefaring in”Nemesis” made me wish it was a novel instead.

What have you been reading?

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After the Storm: Part Forty-One

392px-Redon_cactus-manJust tuning in? Start here. 

The lunch break was far too short. Before Daphne knew what had happened she was back sitting on the hard bench, once again rocking the baby awake while Lemon felt asleep underneath her skirt on the floor.

The Miller case’s verdict was as expected. A community can only survive if the members work together and share their resources. Mariposa and her fellow ombudsmen could really only rule in favour for the plaintiff, as obnoxious as his complaints about his neighbour might be.

A brief silence overtook the room as the plaintiff and defendant walked out of the small, stuffy room.

“Do we have any more business for today?” asked the head ombudsman. Mariposa shook her head as Daphne’s hopes rose. They might actually get to go home early!

“I have a question,” a short, man sitting in the corner said bristly.

“Yes?” Daphne sighed as he walked to the front of the room. She didn’t recognize him but knew from experience that audience members who took that liberty also tended to be long-winded. At least Lemon could sleep through whatever was coming next.

“What are you going to do about all of the foreigners coming into Peoria?”

“Sir – ”

“There are getting to be too many of them. We’ve absorbed what we could, but we need to send the rest packing. You represent all of us and it’s your job to carry out our wishes. Now how do you plan to do that?”

“Sir, this isn’t the right –  ”

“Every month there’s a new one! You have to do something about this.”

“That’s not something we have the resources to handle,” said the man on the opposite end of the table. They barely had the authority to make their own people pay attention to their rulings. Telling strangers what to do and actually having them listen to strangers who honestly could do nothing to stop them was impossible.

“Then who in the hell does?”

“Our sheriff – ”

“He’s useless. All he does is sit around and drink.” Daphne stifled a giggle. She’d been so excited to meet the sheriff a few months after moving here as Mingus had never had a position like that before, but the man who was supposed to keep Peoria safe seemed far more interested in long naps and winking at the last dregs of his bottle before it fully emptied. It was a wonder the man could walk in a straight line, never mind do any of his other duties. And yet every time he came up for reelection he won again without a whiff of competition.

Of course, it probably helped that his father was the head of the council and had been for the past 20 years. Having a small group of experienced ombudsmen had its advantages when it came to complicated cases or questions that weren’t raised very often, but it also made it easy for a handful of families to calcify their influence on the rest of the community in ways that Daphne wasn’t convinced were entirely helpful.

“But we need support! I can’t keep everyone safe on my own.” The man’s face reddened as his temper grew more tender.

“No one is asking you to do that, Henry. But you haven’t to understand – ”

“There’s been enough understanding. We have to act now before those damn foreigners come back.” The atmosphere in the room became prickly. Well over a third of the people sitting and standing there had been born elsewhere. Peoria had become quite the popular   place to migrate into after disease and a series of battles with Mingus killed off so many of its original inhabitants. Without immigrants it was doubtful that the community would have survived the past thirty years.

The argument droned on as the baby fell back asleep. It would have been amusing to watch the ombudsmen argue with their fed-up neighbour if Daphne hadn’t been so tired of sitting on the cold, hard bench. Her tailbone ached as if she was carrying a baby inside of body instead of cradling it on her lap. Razor-sharp memories of the time she was trying to forget scraped against her skull as she adjusted her weight and stretched her feet out in the aisle. At least her ankles weren’t swollen today. It had been quite irritating to walk around without shoes when her feet became too cumbersome to fit into the only shoes she had owned back then.

“Are there any other relevant matters to discuss today?” Daphne felt the sharp edge in Mariposa’s voice cut through the restlessness in the room. Silence. Even Lemon stopped wagging his groggy tail as everyone waited for an answer to the youngest ombudsman’s question. There was no response.

“The meeting is adjourned. We will reconvene at the beginning of next month.”

“Well, I guess I’ll just have to bury the bodies myself, then.” The man grumbled as he paced back to his original seat to gather up his travelling cloak and water bottle.  He said it just loudly enough that Daphne heard his growl. She looked around the nearly-empty room with wide eyes. No one else seemed to react to his pronouncement. If anything, they acted like he was an invisible man.

He slid through the door with the last of the audience members as Daphne rocked the baby and waiting for Mariposa to finish the quiet conversation she was having with the head ombudsman. She must have misheard him. It was the only rational explanation for why no one else was reacting to the terrible image he’d planted into Daphne’s mind.

 

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Dig Deeper

Oh we’re a mess, poor humans, poor flesh—hybrids of angels and animals, dolls with diamonds stuffed inside them We’ve been to the moon and we’re still fighting over Jerusalem. Let me tell you what I do know: I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good. The truth is complicated. It’s two-toned, multi-vocal, bittersweet. I used to think that if I dug deep enough to discover something sad and ugly, I’d know it was something true. Now I’m trying to dig deeper.

– Richard Siken

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Selfishness Is Not Living As One Wishes to Live…

“Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. And unselfishness is letting other people’s lives alone, not interfering with them. Selfishness always aims at creating around it an absolute uniformity of type. Unselfishness recognises infinite variety of type as a delightful thing, accepts it, acquiesces in it, enjoys it. It is not selfish to think for oneself. A man who does not think for himself does not think at all. It is grossly selfish to require of one’s neighbour that he should think in the same way, and hold the same opinions. Why should he? If he can think, he will probably think differently. If he cannot think, it is monstrous to require thought of any kind from him. A red rose is not selfish because it wants to be a red rose. It would be horribly selfish if it wanted all the other flowers in the garden to be both red and roses.”

― Oscar Wilde, The Soul of Man and Prison Writings

I was planning to write a long post on this subject, but Oscar Wilde sums it up much better than I can.

There was a time when I cringed when the word selfish was tossed around. Now I look up to see who is throwing it and what their intentions might be.

Yes, sometimes it’s used for legitimate reasons. Only thinking about yourself isn’t an appealing or helpful trait.

But at other times people use this word to push others into choices that they’d never make on their own. It’s even worse than being selfish to me because it presumes that other adults can’t possibly make good choices on their own. Their profound lack of trust and uncontrollable urge to micromanage other adults is deeply troubling.

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Suggestion Saturday: January 25, 2014

Here is this week’s list of paintings, short stories, photographs, and other tidbits from my favourite corners of the web.

Befuddled via CocoJGingerSays. I’m not entirely sure what this means, but I really like it.

Goblin Market. I heard this poem for the first time last week when it was quoted in a Dr. Who episode my husband was watching. It’s quite the tale if there’s anyone else out there who somehow skated through their childhoods without hearing it.

The Irish Atheist Strikes a Deal.  This is such a fantastic idea. Hopefully there will be churches who take him up on it!

The Humble(d) Husband: the Two Coders via HacksIsTeenEyed. Certain words have completely different meanings depending on your profession. This blog post explores what it’s like to be married to someone whose understanding of one such word is so completely different from the author’s own.

Russian Mother Takes Magical Pictures of Her Two Kids With Animals On Her Farm via PenguinGalaxy. The best photographs are of the ones with the boy and his bunny. So cute.

From Do We Have to be Offended by Everything:

Whatever the case is, there is no possible chance that you could be wrong.

And yet.

What if you are wrong?

And what if your defensiveness has effectively shut down an opportunity to learn something?

And what if you genuinely did hurt someone?


Anxiety: A Short History is the most interesting book I’ve read so far in 2014.

There have always been people who felt anxious, but how societies thought of it has varied quite a bit from one century to the next. This book discusses how and why these sentiments have changed over the years. While it’s more academic than the typical book I recommend here, I still highly recommend it to anyone interested in the subject.

What have you been reading?

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